This is not friendship-
This is a prison.
With your weight
On my shoulders-
Round your neck.
Please don’t make
This my struggle;
I have enough
Of my own.
When everything in your relationship is built on making one person feel better, and the other suffering because of it, something is wrong.
Stuck. Lost. Spiralling. Hurting
Wish I could stop it. Wish I could move on for good.
Time and time again I’ve “moved on” and learnt to be happy with someone else.
But you walk into the room and my world of thin glass shatters. Showering my world in pain and suffering again.
I can’t even put words to what draws me to you. It’s magnetic. It’s intense.
Your voice makes me light up and die inside at the same time.
How do you do it? How do you have this hold on me. A hold you don’t want. A hold you have never wanted.
I know I’m crazy. My friends all tell me this too. 4 years of heartache and I’m still stuck on you.
I need to fix this. I need to end this. Because you have made it perfectly clear you don’t want me.
It eats away at me day after day, night after night. How can I once and for all let you go?
Please take these chains from my heart and set me free.
Please Save me from myself.